PERYA (sosyal!)

shocks it's almost 1am na, we're supposed to leave at 3am pero di pa rin ako tapos mag pack ng things...crap...kelan ba matatapos ang katamarang ito! i love traveling but what i hate the most is the agony of choosing the best possible clothes to bring...dapat matchy matchy and dapat planned out if magagamit ba or not. it's supposed to be easy for me kse i have a small body frame so obviously my clothes are small but no! di pa rin sila kasya sa bag...

preparation checklist:

1. psp/ psp charger ( bilin ng aking friend)
2. cam/ charger (courtesy of miggy)
3. sports bag ( thanks to miggy ulit)
4. beach wear ( as if ! but thanks to geh merun akong cute tops)
5. ipod ( pde lang dalin ang laptop)
6. etc... sana wala ako makalimutan

yan nagmana kasi ako sa tatay ko, even if my travel abroad or wherever mag travel laging rush/ cramming ang style ng pag pack ng things. so hopefully, wala ako nakalimutan.

another thing, nag perya kami ( haha as in perya to the max) nila miggy, robbie and ninoy kanina at around 9pm, bawal na daw kasi kami mag poker sa aming poker house so ayun basta may gambling... you can see us there kahit sa perya pa ito. robbie and miggy won big pot, it's funny kasi para kaming nasa game show, miggy kept on screaming the card he made a bet and our 20php each relies on 3 small pingpong balls. the 2 of them won, well actually parang kami n rin ni ninoy nanalo kse nilibre nila kme sa BM.

hopefully our trip will be fun and worth it...promise after this trip maghahanap na talaga ako ng work!

need my groove back

go go go BORACAY!

it's sembreak but not really. i just resigned from my work so i guess i am an official bum for who knows till when.

just need a refresher or this trip to boracay with my friends will surely revved me up again to access what's my career plan. crossed fingers! hehe

let's do this..mag swimming na tayo!!!

It can't rain all the time

i used to love the rainy season, but things change, as we grow older our choices and routines may also change because of those circumstances and people that brought pain and happiness for the past years.

one may bent their rules and principles just to be happy even for a short period of time or even just for a day. but one must know the consequences they have to handle upon breaking these so called norms.

i made mistakes, i regret some of it but mostly i learned from it. i can always choose the same choices and decide the same decisions but now i can handle and accept the consequences in a manner that can be considered maturely.

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there's this debutante who thinks she's the most prettiest girl in the world just because someone had agreed to be her escort for the night. the escort may love and admire her so much but the debutante's ignorance may cause her heartbreak. the escort may be as supportive and responsible enough to fetch you after your preparations. but how can a debutante ignore the fact that his escort has never even tried to be a responsible father to his 1st born child with another debutante.maybe the happiness and romance of dancing her cotillion with his escort were what she really wanted that made her lovestoned enough that she never cared for whatever mistakes his good-for-nothing escort had done to her.

one must admire this debutante for being a very understanding lady but she should have fully accepted the consequences for her decision to dance with his escort. the escort who already had been dancing with other debutantes before she even choose him.

thing's are not always what they seem my dear debutante.
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i used to love the rain, i even thought of the naming my daughter rain, although i still appreciate the beauty of the rain but it's not like before...thing's happened for reasons one might not understand for now but sooner or later one can find answers if they will just accept the past.

4 years of teaching stint

1. Toshiba Laptop
2. Sony PSP slim
3. Ipod 30gb
4. Sun cellular signal
5. 250 gb xHDD
6. 3 phones
7. Palawan, Batangas, Tagaytay, Baguio Trips
   
8. Puerto Galera, Zambales, La Union, Quezon Trips
9. New friends, Enemies
10. Shopping
11. Parties
12. Concerts

Not bad for the material things. for almost 4 years of being an instructor, i just felt the pressure during the 6 months of my career. it was never the makukulit na students, it was never the laborious computation of grades, it was never the lack of appreciation of my supervisor that i had to consider not renewing my contract with the university. i was always a low profile employee, i never aimed for the position ( even if it's supposed to be given to me years back), i don't need prestige and fame, i am in my comfort zone, i already have more benefits that one can dream of. they kept on forgetting that i am a true daughter of this university. even if they sum up all their services and efforts nothing will ever reach the level that my family has already brought to this university.

oh well, it's bitterness all over again. i just hoped they' ll realize that being an instructor requires the responsibilies of transferring knowledge and facilitating to their students. sayang yun pa naman yun goal ng project, hindi yun puro project ang inuuna kse nga naman ang laki ng bayad kaysa sa sweldo ng ordinaryong teacher. tsk tsk.

sana lahat masaya na, you got all the attention you need, stop acting as if you're the coolest teacher or kuya ng bayan. i know exactly what kind of person you are...and as long as i can remember you don't have real friends? merun nga ba? sa 4 years wala ako nakilalang barkada mo, so i guess it's safe to assume that you'll be a loner kasi you have the mentality of a crab and the heart of a greedy and envious looser.

of all the things that had happened to me for the past for your years, the most hurtful was being with someone whom i thought was the most honest person and true friend. but being stabbed/ betrayed by this person just to achieve his own goals, well it was very stupid of me trusting someone specially someone who needs to climb the social ladder of prestige because he's just nothing compared to us. KING CRAB.

to be continue... pag di na ko bitter.super depressing...