4 years of teaching stint

1. Toshiba Laptop
2. Sony PSP slim
3. Ipod 30gb
4. Sun cellular signal
5. 250 gb xHDD
6. 3 phones
7. Palawan, Batangas, Tagaytay, Baguio Trips
   
8. Puerto Galera, Zambales, La Union, Quezon Trips
9. New friends, Enemies
10. Shopping
11. Parties
12. Concerts

Not bad for the material things. for almost 4 years of being an instructor, i just felt the pressure during the 6 months of my career. it was never the makukulit na students, it was never the laborious computation of grades, it was never the lack of appreciation of my supervisor that i had to consider not renewing my contract with the university. i was always a low profile employee, i never aimed for the position ( even if it's supposed to be given to me years back), i don't need prestige and fame, i am in my comfort zone, i already have more benefits that one can dream of. they kept on forgetting that i am a true daughter of this university. even if they sum up all their services and efforts nothing will ever reach the level that my family has already brought to this university.

oh well, it's bitterness all over again. i just hoped they' ll realize that being an instructor requires the responsibilies of transferring knowledge and facilitating to their students. sayang yun pa naman yun goal ng project, hindi yun puro project ang inuuna kse nga naman ang laki ng bayad kaysa sa sweldo ng ordinaryong teacher. tsk tsk.

sana lahat masaya na, you got all the attention you need, stop acting as if you're the coolest teacher or kuya ng bayan. i know exactly what kind of person you are...and as long as i can remember you don't have real friends? merun nga ba? sa 4 years wala ako nakilalang barkada mo, so i guess it's safe to assume that you'll be a loner kasi you have the mentality of a crab and the heart of a greedy and envious looser.

of all the things that had happened to me for the past for your years, the most hurtful was being with someone whom i thought was the most honest person and true friend. but being stabbed/ betrayed by this person just to achieve his own goals, well it was very stupid of me trusting someone specially someone who needs to climb the social ladder of prestige because he's just nothing compared to us. KING CRAB.

to be continue... pag di na ko bitter.super depressing...